Heartstrings (Heart & Soul Book 1) by Kelli McCracken

Author:Kelli McCracken [McCracken, Kelli]
Language: eng
Format: epub, azw3
Publisher: Twin Flames Press
Published: 2015-03-25T23:00:00+00:00

~ CHAPTER THIRTEEN ~

The madness that transpired the prior day left me listless. I woke at least an hour ago, but fell back into a darkened haze. I was in limbo, caught between the reality of this world and a carnival of confusion in my dreams.

It wasn’t a sound sleep I’d given in to. Some type of noise always brought me back to the brink of consciousness. Birds chirping. Soft footsteps. Appliances humming. It didn’t matter which. My soul was restless, but at the same time, trapped inside a shell that served no purpose. I longed for memories—memories that could end my existence if my reaction to them continued to be the same.

Squeezing my eyes tighter, I did my best to stay in the darkness. Ignoring the world wouldn’t make it go away, but facing it didn’t get me any closer to what I needed. Peace.

The mattress cradled my bottom. I felt weightless despite the heaviness in my heart. Why would God create such a pitiful excuse for a human being? I didn’t understand why I was going through this. My mother always said that God wouldn’t put more on you than you could handle, but I couldn’t handle this. I wanted to wave a white flag and surrender.

The darkness beckoned me deeper. I chased after it, falling back into the pit of despair. Escaping it grew impossible. It was like a big muddy hole. The more you tried to climb out, the more you slid down the sides and caked yourself in mud. I couldn’t escape the desolation.

Flickers of light played before me. I cringed at the thought of what it meant. More memories were pushing to the surface. As much as I wanted such a thing the prior day, the fear of what it would do to me increased. Yeah, maybe I didn’t care if I lived or died, but I didn’t want to die in pain or in fear. The flashbacks were beginning to scare me.

Strands of black and gold swirled together. They expanded into a larger mass that attempted to take on a form. I struggled to see what it was, but instead of clearing into something recognizable, it continued to morph into other colors.

My heart raced. What was this figure before me? I had the feeling that whatever was about to reveal itself would rip away the little strength I had left to survive. How much could one person take?

“Jo?”

The frigid, dark space in my mind began shifting. Heat caressed my skin, and the emptiness I’d submitted to began filling with light. Someone was pulling me back. The masculine voice touched my heart. Was it Adam? Had he gotten over the argument we had and came back?

“Jo, can you hear me?”

His voice rang clearer. I blinked my eyes, taking in the twilight haze creeping through the cracks in the blinds. A smidgen of hope entered my heart. I wanted to see Adam. I wanted to apologize for wishing him away.

Fingers caressed my arm. I savored their warmth, finding the strength I needed to force myself awake.

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